Category: 1ThinkingTooLoud

  • A Sharp Left

    A Sharp Left

    Never accuse me of going in a straight line. I swear I think it is impossible for me to have one thread going in my life on any front. For example, I’m querying a novel. I’m finishing the last, last, last, oh please let them be the last edits, I’ve written a spiffy new database, […]

  • In Crisis or just Tuesday?

    In Crisis or just Tuesday?

    I’m going to talk about suicide and other hard and ugly things. If this isn’t for you, please, move along. Comments will be monitored. I have spent a great deal of time recently in doctor’s offices. Nothing particularly new or alarming, just more fallout from my round with breast cancer. That is a story for […]

  • An Analogy: the Wetsuit

    An Analogy: the Wetsuit

    People often find it difficult to explain, or to understand Complex PTSD. I often find myself falling into metaphor or analogy to explain the experience. The reason for using an abstraction is because in Complex PTSD the particulars from one person to another vary – greatly. I have found that trying to paint a detailed […]

  • By Jove – I think I finally get it.

    By Jove – I think I finally get it.

    This post is probably going to sound a lot like bragging – but I promise there is a point at the end… I am challenging myself to do ‘one big thing a day’. Why? Because I stand in amazement at what an ordinary human can accomplish in a morning. For decades I have watched friends […]

  • Healing the Invisible

    Healing the Invisible

    After a few tries you wonder if the voices of the CPTSD are right. You fear you never will be ‘visible’… But, there is a tiny voice within undulled by all the abuses and fear that whispers – “Try.”

  • Falling off the edge

    Falling off the edge

    Meanwhile, the Dr., the Pharmacy, the Insurance company are all looking at one another and telling me that I am not their problem. 

    Meanwhile – I’m running out of my medication. 

  • A new post up at the CPTSD Foundation

    A new post up at the CPTSD Foundation
  • What is Complex-PTSD (CPTSD)

    What is Complex-PTSD (CPTSD)

    What is Complex-PTSD? Definition of CPTSD Complex post traumatic stress disorder is a psychological disorder that can develop in response to prolonged, repeated experience of trauma in a context where the individual has little or no chance of escape. Honestly, I can’t remember if these are my words or not. Please tell me if they […]

  • Question of interest for book on CPTSD

    Question of interest for book on CPTSD

    A question to readers about Complex PTSD.

  • A little victory over CPTSD

    A little victory over CPTSD

    I didn’t have a migraine last night.Read that sentence again because I’m going to explain WHY? that is a big deal. Ready? One of the symptoms of my Complex PTSD, since I was 12 perhaps, has been debilitating blinding headaches. I could expect expect 3-4 nights out of the year that I would spend sleeping […]