Tag: trauma

  • A 1-Star Rating

    A 1-Star Rating

    I’m talking trauma today. But, not the usual mental flavor, no today is gonna get real. Real, real. Think about a place where you really don’t want to see a one-star rating. Ting! You guessed it. A hospital. I discovered, after my little adventure, that our local hospital has a one-star rating. And, wow, deservedly…

  • An Analogy: the Wetsuit

    An Analogy: the Wetsuit

    People often find it difficult to explain, or to understand Complex PTSD. I often find myself falling into metaphor or analogy to explain the experience. The reason for using an abstraction is because in Complex PTSD the particulars from one person to another vary – greatly. I have found that trying to paint a detailed…

  • Gabby Petito – Another Lost

    Gabby Petito – Another Lost

    The video of the stop in Moab Utah. Fair warning – It is hard to watch. I heard the news this morning about Gabby Petito as I checked my feeds. The confirmation of my worst fears was there, displayed on the screen. I heard there was a video of the interaction with law enforcement in…

  • Healing the Invisible

    Healing the Invisible

    After a few tries you wonder if the voices of the CPTSD are right. You fear you never will be ‘visible’… But, there is a tiny voice within undulled by all the abuses and fear that whispers – “Try.”

  • Falling off the edge

    Falling off the edge

    Meanwhile, the Dr., the Pharmacy, the Insurance company are all looking at one another and telling me that I am not their problem.  Meanwhile – I’m running out of my medication. 

  • What is Complex-PTSD (CPTSD)

    What is Complex-PTSD (CPTSD)

    What is Complex-PTSD? Definition of CPTSD Complex post traumatic stress disorder is a psychological disorder that can develop in response to prolonged, repeated experience of trauma in a context where the individual has little or no chance of escape. Honestly, I can’t remember if these are my words or not. Please tell me if they…

  • A little victory over CPTSD

    A little victory over CPTSD

    I didn’t have a migraine last night.Read that sentence again because I’m going to explain WHY? that is a big deal. Ready? One of the symptoms of my Complex PTSD, since I was 12 perhaps, has been debilitating blinding headaches. I could expect expect 3-4 nights out of the year that I would spend sleeping…

  • Off the rails : CPTSD Cycle

    Off the rails : CPTSD Cycle

    Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is a bitch. I was trying for something more academic sounding, but let’s face it, I’m not on that plane today. Nope, today is one of those days where I’m just trying to figure out where I put my sh*t. Or, more accurately, where I lost it. I know when.…

  • CPTSD Paradox #3 : joy and fear

    CPTSD Paradox #3 : joy and fear

    Yesterday was a remarkable day. So many people felt as if they were coming up for air after fighting to breathe for years. The announcement of Joe Biden and Kamala Harris being elected as the next president and vice-president of the United States was literally celebrated around the world. All the aspects of life that…

  • Positives we have learned from CPTSD

    Positives we have learned from CPTSD

    Weird title, right? I saw a thread over on Twitter, some of you all may have seen or participated in it as well.What it was about was looking at the positive side of the traits of CPTSD that we have. I was skeptical at first. It struck me as rather ‘wishful thinking’. But, I stuck…